There are times when I feel like I am being crushed by the weight of my responsibilities. As if that’s not bad enough, I’m also drowning in a pool of other people’s expectations of me. It’s like no matter how hard i try i can not escape from it. Sadly I am a firm believer in taking care of our responsibilities and holding ourselves accountable for our actions however, hard it may be at times.
Finding your passion
As I mentioned before in one of my posts, I made a decision to start my own business. The reason behind this decision is so that I am able to support my child better. I had to continue working throughout this pandemic because I couldn’t afford to stay at home. I like what I do for a living, so I didn’t mind going into work. However, that also meant that my child had to continue going into school throughout this period. I am grateful to the teachers that came in to be with our children and the awesome team at Fairplay afterschool club that volunteered to care for our children afterwards.
That being said, this whole situation made it clear to me that I needed more than one stream of income to better support my child and I. Now that I have made this decision, I needed to work out what type of business I want to build. I have given it some thought and I came up with a couple of ideas. 1) being jewellery making, 2) knitting and crocheting bags and scarves and 3) starting a podcast. Oh and I almost forgot, last but not least writing a book. See, these are all good ideas, easy to learn and start and most importantly do not cost a lot of money to start. The only problem is I am not passionate about any of these things. I like them and I know I would enjoy doing them but none of them are my passion.
I have been watching and listening to a lot of people talking about their own journey and the process they went through to start their business. One thing that stood out and was repeatedly pointed out was that they all said “to do something you love and passionate about.” This got me to really think about what is it that I am passionate about? What is it that I loved and enjoyed doing? After much pondering, I realised that ‘I LOVE HELPING OTHERS.’ That is what I am passionate about. So, now that I have discovered what my passion is, how do I turn it into a business? Keeping in mind that I do not wish to help them from a medical stand point.
The journey continues….
Health is wealth
This is a statement that has been said by often but how many of us truly take it to heart and try to live it. I believe in this statement and understand the sentiment of it but cannot say that I made enough effort to try and live it. I tried here and there but was never that committed. Like many out there, I complain about the way I look, my body weight and all that stuff but do not really do anything about it. However, this is the year for me to try….no, not try but do it. First step is changing my mindset. I am going to make this year, MY YEAR!! Corona or no Corona.
Aspirations
My love for books has been an ongoing affair since childhood. Reading has allowed me to dream big and experience a world far from my own reality. Reading allowed me to escape from my own pain and suffering but it also brought me hope and joy.
In secondary school I wanted to become a writer and fashion designer. I couldn’t choose between the two, so I figured it would be better to pursue both. Thinking about it now, it feels like a lifetime ago. In college, I decided that I wanted to be a psychologist. The change in my career plan was inspired by a psychological thriller book that I read. I thoroughly enjoyed my psychology and criminology classes (mind you I also watched a lot of CSI shows), that may also have played a part.
10 plus years later and I am not doing any these things. Working in the health care sector has allowed me to partially fulfil one of my aspirations. I am currently contemplating writing again. I plan to take my time and see where I go with it. Hence one the reasons I started this blog.
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You should not let your past determine your future. Learn from it, take the lesson then let it go.
You are alive next few decades to serve & live your purpose. No matter how bad your past was, don’t be a product of that pain.
Starting a business
So, as part of my growth and development, I have made a decision to start a business. To be honest I surprised myself with this decision. I have never considered myself to be an entrepreneurial type of person. Yet, since I finished my degree, it is something I have contemplated for some time. It is uncharted waters for me but i am ready to wade my way through it. I am currently in the research phase and all I can say is that my brain is on overload. There’s so much information to work through and so many things to consider before I can even start.
I need to think about what type of business I want to build and how I am going to fund it. Not only that, I made a decision to relearn some old skills like knitting and crocheting. I can tell you right now that learning or relearning a new skill is one of the most tedious thing I have ever experienced. It’s like I just want to scream: please God let me get this right and be perfect at it. I am tired, I don’t want to do this anymore lol. It is a great learning curve for me though and can not wait to see what this journey holds. #newchapter
Graduating in 2020
What now?
This is a question I have been asking myself lately. As I mentioned before in one of my posts, I completed my last assignment for my course on the 11th of May. This afternoon I received an email from the university congratulating me on the completion and passing of my course. It made me happy to know this but I still had no answer to my question. What now? Now that I have accomplished my long time goal ,what is next ?
Being someone who believes in progress and moving forward, I do not particularly enjoy feeling stuck. Being in a limbo and not knowing what to do with myself tends to affect my mental wellbeing. And this is something work hard to avoid. Yet I find myself going down this slippery slope of lately. I hope to find a new focus soon. However, until then I’m just going to bask in the joy of having completed my degree.
Random talk......In my mind. 